Journal #51 – Years From Now


Topic: Where do you want to be in 5, 10, 20 or 40 years?
      5 Years: Hopefully done with college (if I go for a Master’s). And I will probably be in Brazil right out of college to visit a friend.
         10 Years: Hopefully married or in a long-term committed relationship. And hopefully I’ll have the career that I’ve always wantee, that’s both fulfilling and meaningful.
         20 Years: By then I would have already decided if I want to have kids or not, so if I do then I’d have one kid, and if I don’t then I would be childless. I will hopefully have a house and still be in contact with my old friends. I’m not too sure what I imagine for myself that far ahead in the future, but I hope that it’s everything that I will ever want.
            40 Years: I will probably still be working. I can’t really picture what 40-years-from-now Rebecca will be doing. Maybe I’ll be taking it easy, or maybe I’ll be focused on family. Time will tell.


Truths to be Known


I can lay down and think of how time passed us by.
I’ll count the dandelions as I ponder why.
There are so many truths waiting to be revealed,
Yet so many lies so greatly concealed.

I count five, ten, fifty; too many to count.
All the while thinking of the next adventure to mount.

To seize,
To conquer.
To claim as my own.
For there’s much to see as there is much to be known.

Journal #50 – Fundamental Life Values


Topic: What are your fundamental life values?
              Seek the truth in all things, do what’s right even when right hurts more than what’s wrong, and be humble. I can make an entire list for you, but I can bring it down to those three.
At first glance, I thought about referencing the Ten commandments, but I don’t know if I’d say they are my fundamental life values. I try to stay true them, yes, but at the core of it, they aren’t the ones that define my character.
           I seek the truth in all things because the truth is what matters. We live in a world where life becomes so saturated with lies, that it gets to the point where it’s hard to differentiate the two. And even worse, we become somewhat apathetic to the line that divides them. The truth is what I live for. I want to be honest with myself and with everyone, and in doing so the truth is what sets me apart.
          Doing what is right is a monumental pillar in my foundation. Justice has always been a concept/movement/ideal that I’ve gravitated towards. Whether that’s as a cop or as some sort of wildlife/conservation-focused worker. I want peace and I want equality as much ad the next guy, but more than that, I want justice. I want people to understand justice and to understand how important it is. If you seek the truth, the urge for justice should follow.
          And then there is the fundamental value of being humble. I humble myself to that of any other individual. I’m not perfect, and I know that there are times where cockiness or selfishness can make it seem like I’m the furthest person from it. But I try. And that is what matters.