Journal – I Want to Believe


Topic: Why do you want to believe?

Do I want to, or do I need to? To not believe would speak volumes of my character and personality. It does for everyone. I want to believe because to not believe seems like a default. And I was born into a customized world. I’m not making the argument about fine-tuning, but I’m also not saying it hasn’t affected my judgment.

When I hear that someone else believes in what I believe in, I don’t feel empowered or instantly connected to them, as one would imagine. Don’t group us into a prototype. I want to know why they believe, what they believe, and how they have come to believe. I want to know if we are a ‘we’ or if we are of separate minds.

I believe in what I believe because I grew up in a world surrounded by others who believed. I’m not saying that this is the only reason why I believe, but it is the starting point. I won’t deny that.

I came to believe more wholesomely in my faith when I had started to think of complex ideals and issues far beyond my capability to understand. Questions were posed, and questions were given. Answers? I got very few of, but I felt a part of me that always seemed satisfied.

I could not see or hear what others demanded to perceive, but I felt like I had the answer inside of me. Was it distilled upon me? Was it molded into me by my environment? I think that you can try to do that to any singular person, but I don’t believe it will work.

I believe because I want to believe, because I need to believe, and because it is all I know how to do. I believe because there is no world where I am separate from an eternal source. That is something that I can never believe. I’ve heard the arguments, debated on both sides, and have come to understand where my logic falls. And that logic falls on why I believe it’s okay to believe in what I believe. I can feel it, and that is enough for me.


One thought on “Journal – I Want to Believe

  1. Paulina

    Very well put, although there are many questions on what we believe there are also many examples our beliefs got us through many hard times. We didn’t pray so that God could know what we were going through, we prayed and continue to pray so that He could intercede.

    One lyric you know very well still rings true, “He still moves, even when He disapproves!”

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